Passionate

The Queen is Dead ― Long Live the Queen

25 Nov My arm is on fire. I can feel the heat radiating up and down my skin. Beautiful pain. I can see and feel the milky white welts on my forearm from dragging the scissors across it. Soon, those welts will form a word that will be there forever. Just like a tattoo. I got into a huge fight, so now I’m super pissed-off and detached. I hate myself so much. I hate how I can never stay happy for longer than a day or two at the most. I hate this. It’s a miserable existence. Tomorrow, I’ll be flipping out and yelling at myself because I made very LARGE and very NOTICEABLE cuts without thinking of the consequences. Idiot. It hurts so badly now. I want these sensations to end! Anger, hurt, pain, fear, disgust… I want it to go away. It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve felt this terrible and wanted to kill myself. I want to die. I have no one to talk me out of it. So I might as well just go now. Who would even notice?

My arm is on fire. I can feel the heat radiating up and down my skin. Beautiful pain. I can see and feel the milky white welts on my forearm from dragging the scissors across it. Soon, those welts will form a word that will be there forever. Just like a tattoo.

I got into a huge fight, so now I’m super pissed-off and detached. I hate myself so much. I hate how I can never stay happy for longer than a day or two at the most. I hate this. It’s a miserable existence.

Tomorrow, I’ll be flipping out and yelling at myself because I made very LARGE and very NOTICEABLE cuts without thinking of the consequences. Idiot.

It hurts so badly now. I want these sensations to end! Anger, hurt, pain, fear, disgust… I want it to go away.

It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve felt this terrible and wanted to kill myself. I want to die. I have no one to talk me out of it. So I might as well just go now. Who would even notice?

(Source: shot-at-redemption)

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